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Tue, 11 Nov 2003 03:28:47 GMT

You will live in House.
You will drive a green pick up truck.
You will marry grame and have 6 kids.
You will be a waitress in ireland

Mon, 10 Nov 2003 22:11:53 GMT

Im back to this livejournal as I worked hard on my paid style tonight
Sorry to bother anyone.
Just check it out.

word up.

Fri, 22 Aug 2003 18:38:23 GMT

so word on the street is.. that theres this new community that puts the 'zing' in amazing.

so uhh go join it. cause it owns.

abotomy_of_cool

june 19th

Thu, 19 Jun 2003 10:57:53 GMT

today is allie's birthday.
she is older and older everry second.
she's too excited to sleep.

so she posts this: No more, no less
In pools of water after all the rain has left I see your gaze
No more, no less
I’m longing for a Neverland where I can make you oh so happy
In my dreams we fly away from all the pain and school bell rings
To a city that never sleeps and I can see you smile all day
And I can show you just how beautiful complications can be
From the roof top I can lean in close and whisper in your ear:
“Can you see, its not the same, the stars are spelling out your name”
And the moon can only frown because it will never be as beautiful as you
I’m dreaming of Manhattan
Dreaming of where we are so in love
I can make you oh so happy

thank you

Mon, 16 Jun 2003 04:47:50 GMT

You will live in Apartment.
You will drive a silver bike
You will marry Jesse and have 1 kids.
You will be a Journalist in London
MASH. tells all

You are Persephone, from "The Matrix."
Tough cookie, you are, yet there are strains of
sadness and desire that lie beneath you- of
course, you wouldn't want anyone to know.
You're too busy putting up a facade.

What Matrix Persona Are You?
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You are Jim Morrison. The Lizard King, as you are
affectionately known, your rise and fall is one
of the great tragic stories of the decadent
sixties counterculture. Loved all over the
world for your pretensious poetry and proto-
glam-rock stage posturing, you died of a heart
attack aggravated by drugs and alcohol in Paris
on July 3, 1971.

What drugged-out-of-his-mind rock icon are you?
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Dudley

Which minor character from Royal Tenenbaums are you?
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My Inner Age
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Take the What
animal best portrays your sexual appetite?? Quiz

Sick of Life, Godsmack.

Whats Your Suicide Ballad?
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You will become a philosopher, successful
businessman or professional nerd:
You will be generally quite intelligent and have
feelings on most issues. You will probably go
to university and become successful in whatever
field you choose... or maybe you'll decide to
stay at home and play Everquest or Asherons
Call all day.
To void this prophecy you must become more socially
active and concentrate more on your friends.

What does fate have in store for your future?
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hahahahaha thats the biggest load of crap EVER!

I am a hidden drug conspiracy

Which billboard are you?
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you are "the leaving song part II". you
feel alone but its partly because you let
anyone in. everytime someone tries to open up
to you you shut them out because you truly
believe no one will ever love/like you.

which song off afi's sing the sorrow are you?
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You ARE avant garde. you're artistic, cool and
alway 4 steps ahead of the trends and
movements. good job.

Are you Avant Garde [in a beatnik way]?
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WHAT THE FUCK?

Wed, 28 May 2003 18:56:09 GMT

Ev tells me that grade 9 girls were/are reading this livejournal .

Excuse me?
GET THE FUCK OUT! STOP READING ABOUT MY LIFE. I DONT KNOW YOU. YOU DONT KNOW ME. AND YOU DONT KNOW HIM SO CLOSE THIS SCREEN AND STOP READING OKAY?

fuck. some people. to find out about what I do with him? Get over it

Jeez, I read about my friends. Because I care about their lives and how they're feeling not because i DONT KNOW THEM and just want to READ ABOUT THEIR BOYFRIENDS and what they've DONE with them.

DISGUSTING.

DISGUSTING.

and now. I stop posting here. because nosy evil fuckers have made me sick to my stomach

*cough*he's mine*cough* (((does a dance)))

♥ love always, allie

adieu adieu parting is such sweet sorrow

Wed, 07 May 2003 01:09:01 GMT

I dont give a FUCK about your day-to-day. and thats the bastard in me

Tragically as_we_fall. was taking a long walk in the shards of broken glass around her feet. As the luminous gas of old memories and irridesent foes filled her lungs she ~~choked~~

Ladies and Gentlemen the evening is over
We hope you all enjoyed yourselves
And we'll see you again in 1974

and .[scene.]

i'm so hard to handle. i'm selfish and i'm sad

Mon, 05 May 2003 23:36:34 GMT

Explain these long weeknights to me please. Because I'm just so damn tired of not being with you. Could I get anymore selfish. I want you to myself. I want to take every song with the word queen in it and play it over and over and just see you. What the hell is wrong with that? Is it too late. 3 months in to tell you that I never ever want to get out of this. And I can't get your words out of my head. That you may not love me as much as I love yo and how scared I felt. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't look you in the eyes. And I never want to feel that again. I could sit here and analyze my day. But it all comes down to how I feel about you in the end. I'm giving everything to this. And all I want is for you to be with me. Where was I before I knew you. Before I made you eat my scone. Before you walked out of French. Before Tony and Tina's wedding. Before rainbow cinemas. Before fear and loathing in las vegas. Before long walks. Before swinging. Before the Clash. Before my front lawn late at night. Before I didn't talk like a baby... before you.

Wake up please. I know you need rest but I just want to hear your voice. Two Nights ago.Saturday night. The best night of my life. Finally falling asleep with you. How weird it is to try and sleep (too in love with you to shut my eyes) while hearing someone elses breath. Seeing you sleep. Kissing your eyes. Feeling you beside me. Keeping me warm. Waking you up so you wouldn't be late for work. This is how it should be.

Now honey around you
I'm feelin' so good
'Cause you picked me up out of the rough
And you polished me up and made me brand new
And baby before you, ho ho
There was just a black hole
Yeah I was beat down, blacked out
My darling you couldn't even know
But ever since I met you on a cloudy Monday
I can't believe how much I love the rain

I'm so sorrie. Just can't live without you. Can't feel my own way around. Only want you. Everything else ((everything that i did wrong and everything that i regret)) it's all gone.

But what will I do without you.....

"Worlds Apart"

I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all adds up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
to give and die

To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
more deeply than the oceans,
more abundant than the tear
Of a world embracing every heartache

Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow

To love you - take my world apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees

All said and done I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me

Did you really have to die for me?
All I am for all you are
Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart

I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
take my world apart

the staring game.

Mon, 05 May 2003 22:24:14 GMT

I would describe my style as ...just plain thrown together at the last minute
My favorite item of clothing is ..nothing because .. i enjoy being naked?
The item of clothing that best demonstrates my personality is ..my ani difranco lyric covered in crayon jeans because ..they show that i'll write lyrics on anything in anything i can get my hands on
Even though I never wear it, I still keep a ..midriff top made out of wool
I never leave the house without my ..hair elastics
The most recent item of clothing I bought is ..whoa. that was a long time ago. i can't really remember.thats pretty sad
The items of clothing i wear most often are ..duck pj pants. or nothing! wooo
I would be devastated if I lost my ..creeem magazine shirt.
The person whose style I admire the most is ..angela cooney.
If I could wear absolutely anything, it would be ..red and black thigh socks in BIG black boots. plaid miniskirt and black tight longsleeved shirt with my hair dyed bright red and my spikes. yum
I wish I had been alive in ..the late 60s early 70s because .. i'd go full out Penny Lane
If I had to wear one designer for the rest of my life it would be ..uh? ME?
My underwear drawer is filled with ..underwear/boxers and bras
I have ..some of shoes, most of which are ..sandals
Every girl should have .. hanger in her closet
When i get dressed, I like to listen to ..whatever I can get my hands on. but if I had a choice. It would fully be Tragic Kingdom, because No Doubt was so fun back then... ..oh No Doubt. where on earth did you go?
The accessories i can not live without is ..mascara?
I ..can stand make up, i usually use .. black eyeliner and black mascara.

Amish Paradize-Weird Al. (the best parts of the song are put in bold. because well.. they are pee your pants funnie. now LAUGH!)

As i walk throught the valley where i harvest my grain, I take a look at my wife and realize she's very plain. But that's just perfect for an Amish like me, you know I shun fancy things like electricity. At 4:30 in the mornin' i'm milking cows, Jebediah feeds the chickens and Jacob plows, fool and I've been milking and plowing so long that even Ezekial thinks that my mind is gone. I'm a man of the land, I'm into discipline, got a Bible in my hand and a beard on my chin, but if I finish all of my chores, and you finish thine, then tonight we're going to party like it's 1699.

(Chorus) we've been spending most our lives living in an Amish Paradise, I churn butter once or twice, living in an Amish Paradise, It's hard work and sacrifice, living in an Amish Paradise, We sell quilts at discount price, living in an Amish Paradise. '

A local boy kicked me in the butt last week, i just smiled at him, and I turned the other cheek. I don't really care, in fact I wish him well, cause I'll be laughing my head off when he's burning in Hell. I ain't never punched a tourist even if he deserved it, an Amish with a 'tude, you know that's unheard of. I never wear buttons, but I got a cool hat, and my homies agree i really look good in black, fool If you come to visit, you'll be bored to tears, we haven't even payed the phone bill in 300 years, But we ain't really quaint, so please don't point and stare, we're just technologically impaired. there's no phone, no lights, no motorcars, not a single luxury, like robonson Crusoe, it's as primitive as can be,

(chorus) we've been spending most our lives living in an Amish Paradise, we're just plain and simple guys, living in an Amish Paradise, there's no time for sin and vice, living in an Amish Paradise, We don't fight, we all play nice, living in an Amish Paradise

'Hitching up the buggy, churning lots of butter, raised a barn on Monday, soon i'll raise anutter think you're really rightious? think you're pure in heart? well i know i'm a million times as humble as thou art. I'm the pioust guy the little Amletts want to be like on my knees day and night scoring points for the afterlife. so don't be vain, and don't be whiney, or else my brother might have to get medieval on your hiney.

(chorus) we've been spending most our lives living in an Amish Paradise, We're all crazy Mennonites, living in an Amish Paradise, there's no cops or traffic lights, living in an Amish Paradise, But you'd probably think it bites, living in an Amish Paradise, Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah ah-ah ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah, yech!

damn media

Mon, 05 May 2003 02:07:38 GMT

~~((( me )))~~

all across the angry sea

Sun, 04 May 2003 16:56:34 GMT

sorrie for wasting friends page space. but this is important for me to post for myself
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one year ago- i was getting over him
one year ago- i was alcestis. I was death
one year ago-I wanted to kill myself
one year ago- All I wanted to be was someone else
one year ago- I didn't know Jesse Mirsky
one year ago- I didn't have a "group" of friends
one year ago- I wasn't friends with Jess Bloom
one year ago- I didn't smoke as much
one year ago- I didn't know the beauty of clown
one year ago- i wasn't open to happiness
one year ago- i'd never been drunk
one year ago- i wasn't in love
one year ago- i wasn't thankful for life
one year ago- i'd never seen fear and loathing in las vegas
one year ago- i'd still smoke weed
one year ago- i hadn't been on my vigil or my 8 day
one year ago- i didn't know how to let go
one year ago- i'd never done shrooms
one year ago- i wasn't lactose intollerant
one year ago- i wasnt at ease with my heart and mind
one year ago- was the hardest year of my life</center>

my guitar. is gently weeping. no. no it isnt

Sun, 04 May 2003 15:44:46 GMT

Darling,
When did it occur to me that my stomach turns inside out and upside in when I wake up beside you, after a night of just us.

Party. craziest night ever possibly. Can't even possibly write out all the details. But the reality between what really happened and the plot of fight club is all mixed up.

And exactly when it turned 12:00. I spent the first minute of my 3 month anniversary standing in the hall hearing Tiny Dancer playing in Almost Famous. Kissing the person that makes my world spin and spin

So ignore being everyones mother, calming bad trips, holding hair back, too much booze, the chain smoking and the amount of people passed out on the floor. I had a wonerrrous night.

See you all.in 1974.(((sleep deprived and still wandering around the backyard with a beer in my hand)))

Googlism for: allie
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allie is quite the charmer and pete doesn't stand a chance against her

ob-la-di ob-la-da

Sat, 03 May 2003 03:43:23 GMT

i saw him and all i wanted to do was walk away and never see his face again
for the first time in my life
i walked away.
it was just hard seeing him. and remembering who i used to be. all the negativity
but i'm alright. i have so much to be happy about and look forward to.

Doing clown in drama today was so fun and worth it, to be with Georgette/Mindy/Caitlin/Lisa B/Corey and i cant remember who else from that class so sorrie. i thought would be weird but it was so fun trashing the room again. heh heh. i don't think i've ever had that much fun with carboard and papertowels.
No classes was fun. And I caught the call but I'll probably get in trouble on Monday. Kinda nervous about tomorrow night, but why? It's going to be amazing. I just have to keep myself under control. I can fully do that as long as I have luckies and lauri to talk to... I'll be fine.

Mmmm. Another park bench night with the most amazing thing to hit my worrrld. I feel bad though. Maybe you should've gone to the show. But ... we had fun. Fell asleep again and woke up just in the nick of time. I'm excited to be able to spend a whole night with him tomorrow. Whole time. Please let me be able to sleep over. please.

fuck you uterus lining. just fuck you

You have difficulty communicating what is on your mind -- usually because you fear being humiliated and doubt your own intelligence and mental capacities. You may try and compensate for this by working very hard at studies. You are deep and intellectual under the surface -- but often what you present is either intolerance and quiet or being over talkative. This usually is because of a fear of new ideas, even your own. If you examine your own motivation closely you might find that you use these things to avoid situations that might require a new outlook. In order to overcome your feelings of isolation you might try to connect more with your own motivation. You could find that your own ideas are completely acceptable, even valuable

Make the dead feel deader

Fri, 02 May 2003 01:19:59 GMT

Now let me go
so I can brag about the gifts that he stole.
(Thank you) For all the lonely nights.
I will carry this with me where I go.

Bad taste in my mouth.
You would think I'm a whore.
Bad taste in my mouth.
You would think I'm you.

You only get on taste
and for this gift we are graced.
You only get one taste
and for this gift
she's likely to go,
or so she'll say.
We sleep as we do to keep our nights days away.
Love,
or so she'll say.
Immature love.
You breed immature lust.

So died the virgin.
I have told you before,
You we're nothing special to him
(and that's just another thing that's nothing new for you).

You'll be born.
You before.

Embody me
with you body.
I've never seen it.
I have never.
Embody me
with your body.
I've never seen it.
Are you happy?

~~i hate you now.we are NOT friends. you're too good for me. fuck you i hate you~~

i'm just so fucking angry. i fucking hate it all.

i could be sad. but i choose glad

Thu, 01 May 2003 01:56:44 GMT

love-A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness. A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance. Sexual passion. Sexual intercourse. A love affair. An intense emotional attachment.

Entry: love
Function: verb
Definition: adore
Synonyms: admire, adulate, canonize, care for, cherish, choose, deify, delight in, dote on, esteem, exalt, fall for, fancy, flip over, glorify, go for, gone on, hold dear, hold high, idolize, like, long for, prefer, prize, thrive with, treasure, venerate, wild for, worship
Concept: loving
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Things are going right. Wonderrous news. Ta Da! I have nothing to complain about. Well one thing. But its not right to talk about here. <3ing school, mostly the summer atmosphere . People are a lot more open. And hopefully smokers will want to share. I've been sharing only to a selected few, but mine are presents and from France so sharing is kinda not fun.... poo. It's karma though.

All and all, I'm SO excited for Saturday. I don't even think I can fathom a funner way to celebrate Harrison's, Drew's birthdays and *yay* 3 month anniversary from now until sunday so get to celebrate that! and then... monday! ATARIS . holy shit *orgasams*

ps: Alex I got your email but I'm way to drained to type anything more than this entry.But I loved the cheese! You know how much I love the cheese. Your amazing. And I love you so much. Lets not distance again, cause these times of insane closeness is how we should stay. yar matey! sorry... oh well. <3 you deary. keep it clean.. or dirty? heh heh....
pps: Jess i want to canoodle,dandle,press,shine and neck you! *meow* stand back tristanmctristanson. that grade 9 rumor about us sleeping toether!. whoa. if only it wasnt a rumor. sex cat you shall be.

I'm not Stephanie

Wed, 30 Apr 2003 02:21:38 GMT

so lucky. so lucky. and he's MINE all MINE! muhahaha! uhh sorry..

TODAY
-woke up SO late. had to get everything ready with 1 arm. quite the challange
-drama. again with the NOTHING TO DO. ack. i can't take anymore of this
-civics. my dear lord i love that class. best class ever.
-3rd- i think i went to english?
-4th-sat on the floor and did absolutly nothing
-therapy.in etobikoe
-school (madness. never had that many people call my name at once)
-southlake with dani. i coughed on the hospital. i hope it gets sars
-show-holy shit. i <3 mirsky. so good. so good. so talented. so amazing. you know you want him.... go see the show... then you'll want him. oh yes. please dont die mir... i love you... i dont like it when they slit your throat ... and i really didn't like it when she touched your face... thats my face.. no touching.

then i had no ride home. but J-Ri gave me one... and i was happy.
uterus lining. cant take it

love you.thats all

atrás otra vez.

Tue, 29 Apr 2003 01:25:10 GMT

Here are some funny sentances in other languages. I translated them myself yes I did. now keep quiet. Also please don't take offense if your german. Just that your language is so *angry* it makes me wet myself.....

Hay un mono en mis pantalones!-there is a monkey in my pants!

Por qué es mi choda tan itchy? -why is my choda so itchy?

Me gusta comer a bebés- I like to eat babies

Soy un hombre de 60 años, que a gusta tocar a muchachas jóvenes sobre las nalgas-I am a 60 year old man, who likes to touch young girls on the buttocks
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on a sad note:Dont entiendo. He sido donde usted es y quiero que usted hacia fuera el Sentido de Amor Se despierte Por favor Dios Por favor Solamente(Justo) lo hace tenerle sentido Lo hacen verlo como hacemos

i'm angry.i'm scared.i'm worried.mostly i'm just so god damn pissed off at the pure blindness of parents. wake up you idiots!

bah.obsessiveness must stop

Mon, 28 Apr 2003 20:36:43 GMT

I need my own house. so i can live and decorate as I please. or just a small room to decorate. mine's boring and covered already. anyone want to lend me their room to decorate.. how about your house? I'll do a good job.. promise?

and now... for your not at all entertainment cause you wont read it. A SURVEY

: B A S i C S : .

[ .001. ] first name: Allie
[ .002. ] middle name: Euphemia
[ .003. ] last name: Smith
[ .004. ] nickname(s): Al,Allie,Smech,Smith
[ .005. ] gender: female
[ .006. ] age: so close to 16
[ .007. ] birthday: june 19th
[ .008. ] height: five two '
[ .009. ] hair color: blonde with blue-ish green-ish (seafoam if you will)
[ .010. ] eye color: blue crystal
[ .011. ] race: caucasian?
[ .012. ] do you wear glasses or contacts: should. but lost them
[ .013. ] do you have braces: not anymore!
[ .014. ] is your hair long or short: short-ish long-ish
[ .015. ] where were you born: T-dot? Toronto
[ .016. ] current location: Thornhill. The Epitomie of Japs
[ .017. ] zodiac sign: gemini. EBf
[ .018. ] how many languages do you know: one and two halves
[ .019. ] nationality: Irish. oh yes
[ .020. ] bad habits: smoking,pills
[ .021. ] piercings you have: ears and old nipple
[ .022. ] piercings you want: tongue,eyebrow,nose,both nipples
[ .023. ] tattoos you have: none
[ .024. ] tattoos you want: gemini symbol on my hip
[ .025. ] today's date: April 28th. my daddy's birthday
[ .026. ] the time: 6:43
[ .027. ] ready for a bunch more questions: sure

. : F A M i L Y : .

[ .028. ] mother's name: jackie
[ .029. ] father's name: neil
[ .030. ] step-parent's names, if any: i dont have any
[ .031. ] brother(s)'s name(s): carson
[ .032. ] sister(s)'s name(s): n/a
[ .033. ] favorite aunt: auntie jane
[ .034. ] favorite uncle: ummm. uncle murray but he's dead
[ .035. ] favorite grandparent: the only one I knew.... my nannie
[ .036. ] worst relative: my ex-uncle. that bastard
[ .037. ] best relative: my cousin Adrianne
[ .038. ] do you get along with your parents: ya sometimes
[ .039. ] does anyone in your family understand you?: yes

. : P E T S : .

[ .040. ] do you have any pets: nope
[ .041. ] what are their names: n/a
[ .042. ] what kind of animals are they: nothing

. : S C H 0 0 L : .

[ .043. ] are you still in school: sure am
[ .044. ] did you drop out: uh no
[ .045. ] current gpa, or last gpa you got: ummm what?
[ .046. ] favorite grade: 9... oh man. GOOD GOOD times
[ .047. ] least favorite grade: 5
[ .048. ] favorite teacher: Dani. (She was a teacher) Mrs Naiberg,Mrs Roth,Mrs W,Seabass,Rob,Jeffy,Mr Bahl oh and Mr Draycott's pretty cool
[ .049. ] least favorite teacher: Mr Goldberg,Mrs Galprin,Mme Graca,MR SILVER,Mrs McCalpine
[ .050. ] favorite subject: drama,history
[ .051. ] least favorite subject: science ,math,careers and gym but i liked mrs w and my gym class
[ .052. ] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: buy and mooch
[ .053. ] play any sports on the school's team: field hockey. but i was too "violent" so they let me go
[ .054. ] do/did you do any extracurricular ativities: um. drama shows?
[ .055. ] are/was you popular: not so much :) and i'm fine with that baby!
[ .056. ] favorite dance: ha semi.. oh pukey
[ .057. ] favorite memory: i can't pick ONE. so so so so many
[ .058. ] least favorite dance: um semi? oh pukey
[ .059. ] least favorite memory: ugh.tons of them. January 19th 2003 and the 20th. oh so bad
[ .060. ] most humiliating moment: whenever devin panses me..but not really. i really dont get embarassed so thats as close as i get

. : F A V 0 R i T E S : .

[ .061. ] number: 5.
[ .062. ] clothing brand: anything i dont have to pay that much for
[ .063. ] shoes: etnies and my birks
[ .064. ] saying: suck my right one!
[ .065. ] tv show: simpson's and family guy
[ .066. ] sport: snowboarding
[ .067. ] vegetable: green peppers
[ .068. ] fruit: starwberries
[ .069. ] movie: fear and loathing in las vegas,igby goes down,willy wonka and the chocolate factory
[ .070. ] magazine: none.
[ .071. ] actor: johnny depp
[ .072. ] actress: anglina jolie
[ .073. ] candy: 3 musketeers
[ .074. ] gum: anything green
[ .075. ] scent: laundry
[ .076. ] candy bar: aw 3 musketeers or bounty mmm bounty
[ .077. ] ice cream flavor: chocolate/heavenly hash
[ .078. ] color: green
[ .079. ] season: summer!!!
[ .080. ] holiday: new years eve. mmm.
[ .081. ] band: mmm i dont know.the ataris right now
[ .082. ] singer: ani difranco
[ .083. ] group: LFO! haha ew
[ .084. ] rapper: 50 cent. ahahhahaha
[..085. ] type of music: mmm classical.um no. anything really
[ .086. ] thing in your room: my bed!
[ .087. ] place to be: my bed, camp,kinark
[ .089. ] tv channel: comedy network
[ .090. ] junk food: chips and salsa mmm,popcorn,cookies
[ .091. ] overall food: pasta,pancakes,toast
[ .092. ] store: black market.mmm
[ .093. ] shoe brand: etnies,birks
[ .094. ] fast food: mcd's wendys
[ .095. ] restaurant: pickel barrel! woot woot
[ .096. ] shape: triangle
[ .097. ] time of day: sun going down
[ .098. ] country: mmmm UK
[ .099. ] state: states can kiss my ass .
[ .100. ] boys name: Caleb
[ .101. ] girls name: Oona
[ .102. ] mall: Promenade. it's my childhood
[ .103. ] video game: old school mario bros! and the monkey game !! wheeeee
[ .104. ] shampoo: n/a
[ .105. ] board game: ohh the grape escape , but i love ALL board games
[ .106. ] computer game: snood! or the emogame
[ .107. ] car: anything in Truck format
[ .108. ] music video: ummm i dont know.
[ .109. ] swear word: cunt!
[ .110. ] word: wheee
[ .111. ] month: june/august
[ .112. ] cartoon character: Trent from Daria
[ .113. ] scary movie: The Matrix

mmm

Sun, 27 Apr 2003 20:50:49 GMT

Your Stripper Name is Elly Mae!

You're a small town girl who's the big star at your local strip club.

Sure you may not be a Scores girl in NYC, but you're by far the hottest chick in town.

And that means, eventually, that you'll probably snag the richest guy in town - Anna Nicole style.

You'll give a lap dance or two if it means an extra twenty dollar bill at the end of the night...

But you're shocked by what some strippers will do to make some extra cash.

You are a friendly girl and don't mind pleasing customers - as long as you can still look your grandmother in the eye.

What's *Your* Stripper Name?

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LAYER ONE
-- Name: Allie
-- Birthdate: June 19
-- Birthplace: Humber Memorial
-- Current Location: Thornhill
-- Eye Color: blue
-- Hair Color: blinde-ish blue
-- Height: 5'2
-- Righty or Lefty: Righty
-- Zodiac Sign: gemini.hell yes

LAYER TWO
-- Your heritage: Irish, and damn proud
-- The shoes you wore today: my etnies
-- Your weakness: smoking,pills,boys
-- Your fears: becoming an alcoholic,being alone
-- Your perfect pizza: NO CHEESE! yummy.
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: have lots of puppies when im older

LAYER THREE
-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: blargh!
-- Your thoughts first waking up: "my god im gonna be sick.pills now"
-- Your best physical feature: my eyes
-- Your bedtime: whenever i get tired and when ever mirsk will put me to sleep
-- Your most missed memory: camp and anything like that

LAYER FOUR
-- Pepsi or Coke: neither.yuck
-- McDonald's or Burger King: McDonalds.
-- Single or group dates: single
-- Adidas or Nike: ew
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea all the way
-- Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: coffee.black

LAYER FIVE
-- smoke: yes?
-- Cuss: cunt yes
-- Sing: ew.plug your ears.*yes*
-- Take a shower everyday: pff. no
-- Have a crush(es): a major one .
-- Do you think you've been in love: mmmm. in love now
-- Want to go to college: dont really know
-- Like high school: meh
-- Want to get married: yes
-- Believe in yourself: oddly sometimes
-- Get motion sickness: all the time
-- Think you're attractive: *shrugs*
-- Think you're a health freak: not at all.
-- Get along with your parents: sometimes
-- Like thunderstorms: either way
-- Play an instrument: nope

LAYER SIX: In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: maybe?
-- Smoked: Yes
-- Done a drug: pills yes
-- Had Sex: yes.mmmm
-- Made Out: yes
-- Gone on a date: Yes
-- Gone to the mall?: yea
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: Yes!
-- Eaten sushi: ew nope
-- Been on stage: um no
-- Been dumped: Nope.
-- Gone skating: nope
-- Made homemade cookies: not cookies but i made croissants
-- Gone skinny dipping: no
-- Dyed your hair: yah
-- Stolen anything: paintrushes from your fired. but im giving them back when i pick my thingy up. i just wanted to play with them for a week

LAYER SEVEN: Ever..
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: *nods*
-- If so, was it mixed company: Yes
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: yesyes
-- Been caught "doing something": yea
-- Been called a tease: yea,heheh
-- Gotten beaten up: no
-- Shoplifted: nope
-- Changed who you were to fit in: nope

LAYER EIGHT
-- Age you hope to be married: um early.
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 2(adopted) Caleb and Oona
-- Describe your dream wedding: black creek pioneer village! hell yah!
-- How do you want to die: not sure
-- Where you want to go to college: uhhhh no where
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: the easter buuny
-- What country would you most like to visit: Ireland, Bali, Costa Rica,Spain,France,Italy and go to Cuba again

LAYER NINE: In a guy/girl..
-- Best eye color? icey blue
-- Best hair color? hrm.anything
-- Short or long hair: short long with dreads. not long long but shoulder length
-- Height: taller than me
-- Best weight: little skinny boys.. mmm mmm mm
-- Best articles of clothing: tshirts over long slevved shirts.or none at all
-- Best first date location: beds.
-- Best first kiss location: in the rain
LAYER TEN
-- Number of drugs taken illegally:5. grouping pills into one big one
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: 5
-- Number of CDs that I own:more than 64
-- Number of piercings: 2
-- Number of tattoos: none yet
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: 3
-- Number of scars on my body: 3
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: only one. January 19th. 2003.

ifyoueverlovedmedontreadthisplease

Sun, 27 Apr 2003 02:47:25 GMT

So close to dying that I finally can start living.

oh god. so worthless. -slap-

dont try to talk it out of me this time.

you're not the only one allowed to be sad

so much hurt.
so much pain
so much tingling
so much sensation

kicked in the stomach. make it end make it end make it end make it end

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who really cares anymore? the phone stopped ringing in january.
theres no one beyond him.why is there no one anymore. why am i stuck back in this.
one pill down the drain

the one i looked up to(since him) gone to him. lost .gone.cant talk.just not around.
i forgot to explain the jealousy and now youre nowhere.

i will be pure

help. call. thanks. like snow.like gold.

veins filling with poision. i'm done.
thanks for the times that my stomach wasnt caving in. but i can't take what i've become

i've never felt so alone.
i've lost.lost.lost.hurt.pain.thrive.drink.swallow.binge.pills.inhale.over.gone.script.

Step out the front door like a ghost
into the fog where no one notices
the contrast of white on white.
And in between the moon and you
the angels get a better view
of the crumbling difference between wrong and right.
I walk in the air between the rain
through myself and back again
Where? I don't know
Maria says she's dying
through the door I hear her crying
Why? I don't know
Round here we always stand up straight
Round here something radiates
Maria came from Nashville with a suitcase in her hand
she said she'd like to meet a boy who looks like Elvis
she walks along the edge of where the ocean meets the land
just like she's walking on a wire in the circus
she parks her car outside of my house
takes her clothes off
says she's close to understanding Jesus
she knows she's just a little misunderstood
she has trouble acting normal when she's nervous
Round here we're carving out our names
Round here we all look the same
Round here we talk just like lions
But we sacrifice like lambs
Round here she's slipping through my hands
Sleeping children better run like the wind
out of the lightning dream
Mama's little baby better get herself in
out of the lightning
She says It's only in my head
She says Shhh I know it's only in my head
But the girl in car in the parking lot
says "Man you should try to take a shot
can't you see my walls are crumbling?"
Then she looks up at the building
and says she's thinking of jumping
She says she's tired of life
she must be tired of something
Round here she's always on my mind
Round here hey man got lots of time
Round here we're never sent to bed early
And nobody makes us wait
Round here we stay up very, very, very, very late
around here.

songs that just describe

Sat, 26 Apr 2003 15:20:05 GMT

I was just too overwhelmed last night to make any decisions. But I got to have a really chilled night, barely moving and just sleeping in my own bed, resting my arm.
Jesse came over and we watched My Big Fat Greek Wedding. He was laughing. Don't deny it. I was really jealous cause he told me about the zoo(all the monkeys and the animals and the group leaders...they had the best group leaders..) I wish I went to the zoo.

We tried getting in touch with Alanna,Laura and Noah they told me to call them when Jesse got here. They went to glaze craze. I was sad ... I wanted to go to glaze craze.. Oh well. So me and Jesse went for a long walk. We went all around the wps park and it was nice. He likes swings. Thats funny cause I like swings. I like discovering new things about him.. just when I think he's told me everything he's always got more stories. I love his stories

We got back and went upstairs to just lie in bed, we ended up falling asleep and at midnight my dad woke us up... if he didn't we would'nt of ever gotten up.. and so we went outside to wait for his daddy.And we waited 15 minutes and there was this car and we were convinced it wasn't him and... it really was. ha. he was there the entire time.. I bet he's mad and I'm not allowed to see him ever again. I'd die.

But now.. I'm kinda bored. I wanna go out today but I have no money. Maybe I'll find some.. and go to the glaze craze by myself. Awwww. I love the glaze craze.

ps: J-RI. I'M SOOOOOO SORRY. I CAN'T EVEN DESCRIBE HOW SORRY I AM.

til' you chose weed ovver me.... you're so lame. i thought you were cool until the point.until the point you didn't call me when you said you would...... everytime i try to make you smile.. you're always feeling sorry for yourself...every time i try to make you laugh....

ouchies

Fri, 25 Apr 2003 21:41:30 GMT

Which song...
Reminds you of an ex lover: "konstantine"-something corporate and "nightswimming"-rem
Reminds you of an ex friend: “jessie and my whetstone"-saves the day
Makes you laugh: no sex in the champagne room-chris rock and anythingr from 8 crazy nights
Makes you smile: Tiny Dancer-Elton John, Counting the Days-Goldfinger, San Dimas-Ataris
You never want to hear it again: that song that I got my nipple done to.. Lil' Kim
Reminds you of your childhood: anything from Mulan
Sums up your teenage years: Torn-Natalie Imbruglia and A year in the past(forever in the future)-grade
You want to get married to: everlong-foo fighters
You like to wake up to: anything happy
You like out of your parents record collection: Beatles... but now thats my record collection
You love that you wouldn't know about if it wasn't for a friend: The Only Honest Lovesong..
You love the video more than the tune: some Bran Van 2000? one. the whole video is people making out! I love it!
You heard today: cherry kiss-from autumn to ashes
Was stuck in your head: The Entertainer
Remind you of your new crush/love: ummmmm..... the luckiest. ben folds
Makes you think of sex: The Clash
Makes you think of being alone: anything by Saves the Day
Reminds you how you feel about your friends: Wearing Thin-Further Seems Forever and Up UP Down Down(etc)Ataris
Are embarrassed to admit you like: Ignition-R Kelly
Perks you up: Get Loose-the salads
You love to sing: Untouchable Face-Ani DiFranco
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Do you normally (more often than not):

Ask or answer questions? Answer
Bathe in the morning or at night? night
Converse or participate in awkward silence? Converse
Talk or listen? listen
Dress up or dress down? Down,
Stay up late or get to bed early? Late.
Get what you want or get what you deserve? Get what I want.
Get attention or give your attention? give attention
Stand out or blend in? alittle bit of both at different times
Give a hand or give hand outs? Give a hand .
Listen to music or watch tv? Music
Win or lose? either way is cool
Plan or follow-through? follow through
Smile or cry? Smile
Get up early enough to see the sunrise? why not?
Use books or Internet for research? Internet
Sing it or hum it? When i'm by myself, I sing. When i'm with someone, I hum.
Style your hair or just whatever? whatever
Call or get called? Get called
Visit or have people over? visit..
Eat or skip breakfast? skip
Make a meal or go out for one? go out for one
Drive or get driven? drive
Do what you had planned? gemini!.
Attend or skip class/work? SKIP
Act like yourself or act appropriately? Act like myself.
Laugh or get laughed at? Both.
Indulge or abstain? Indulge.
Help others or help yourself? Help others.
Eat what's good for you or eat what tastes good? Eat what tastes good.
Turn it up or just get closer? Turn it up
Start it or finish it? Start it
Stay bored or get things done? get things done
Apologize or be stubborn? stubborn.
Tell them you have a crush on them or hope they figure it out? both
Pay for yourself or get paid for? Get paid for.
Lean in first or wait for them to make a move? Wait for them
Get rejected or never ask? ugh..
Hope it happens or make it happen? make it happen
Try your hardest or hard enough? hard enough
Work it out or put up with what you got? put up with what i've got.
Talk it through or ignore it as much as you can? ignore! ignore!
Know or think? think
Trust or suspect? trust.
Fill out surveys and post them? all the time
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Who/when was the last person you kissed? jesse, this morning before he went to the zoo

Have you ever made out with anyone on your LJ friends list? nope

What (illegal) drugs (if any) have you done? dont remind me that i've done any

What's the best gift you've ever received? 1000 packs of sugar

What's the longest you've stayed awake? 72 hours

What's the best concert you've ever attended? saves the day last december

What's the most illegal thing you've ever done? probably grand theft auto

What's the biggest lie you've ever told? lying is stupid

If you had to give up either music or sex for the rest of your life, which would you pick? sex

What's your favourite bad-for-you food? ice cream! and pizza... mmm

What rockstar would you be a permanent groupie for, no questions asked? saves the day.

What's your biggest guilty pleasure? um Oreos?

What movie have you seen ten times or more? fear and loathing in las vegas

If you could lose (or get back to re-lose) your virginity to any person living or dead, who would it be? jess mirsky

Are you a dog person or a cat person? both

What's your favorite US city? new york?

Have you ever made out with more than one person in the same 24 hour period? yes....

Favorite curse word? cunt!

Have you ever had a romantic/sexual encounter with a rock star?
nope..dammit!

What's the weirdest place you've ever kissed anyone? um not sure

What's the weirdest article of clothing you wear on a regular basis? um underwear

What's the craziest/stupidest thing you've ever done while drunk? Oh God.... Cuba I broke a sign! and then started crying and yelling " Cubans dont have money to buy new signs"... it was at 5 am..when I was coming back from the club. me and 4 girls just layed on the ground laughing

What's your favourite part of a girl's body? nipples!

What's your favourite part of a boy's body? hair! face neck and arms and ummm penis!

What's your favourite smell? laundry on boy, mirsky, and hawian ginger/nag champa mixed together

What's your favourite drink? ice tea arizona style

What song makes you cry? brick-bff ,evaporated-bff,

What current trend do you think is ridiculous and wish would go away immediately? dancers?

pinchmecauseyourjusttoperfecttoloveME?

Fri, 25 Apr 2003 01:51:56 GMT

I know your tired. Tired of reading about my life. If it has nothing to do with you it doesn't matter. Spencer and Julia Riley were extremly right. Livejournal is a selfish selfish way to peer into everyone else's feelings and see if your in their line of fire. I'm not discounting myself from that derrogitory statement. I'm included. But I wish I wasnt. Therefore. I only read what I know I'll comment on... Everyone loves their comments. It means people maybe took the time to read how they were feeling. That someone took the extra time from their incredibly busy day of procrastinating to say something possibly simple and encouraging. Why not? I try to. As much as I can. Because I know that when I get one from someone who I dont really talk to, or even frmo one of my best friends... it makes me smile.... hopefully people smile when they get them from me. Cause I'm trying. Really.
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I have no clue,what this ravaging feeling in my stomach is. It thrives when I'm not with him. And he's all that I can think about. When we're together I can't stop staring at him.Taking in every single part of his body. Seeing the different slops of his face. How his head tilts when he's sleeping. He's perfect. And I'm so hopelessly flawed. Don't be around when this ends. I'll be traumatic.Please don't let it end.

no lies. just ♥love♥♥

I don't get many things right the first time
In fact, I am told that a lot
Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
Brought me here

And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

What if I'd been born fifty years before you
In a house on a street where you lived?
Maybe I'd be outside as you passed on your bike
Would I know?

And in a white sea of eyes
I see one pair that I recognize
And I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you

Next door there's an old man who lived to his nineties
And one day passed away in his sleep
And his wife; she stayed for a couple of days
And passed away

I'm sorry, I know that's a strange way to tell you that I know we belong
That I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

i just might wsaste some time in East New Jersey

Thu, 24 Apr 2003 23:13:59 GMT

My brother looks so lost when he stays home all alone. He doesn't know what to do with himself if he's not smoking,drinking or getting high. It's sad to see him sitting on the couch. Just re-lighting his lighter over and over and over again. With nothing to smoke. No car. Nothing on tv. Succome to this? But I don't want to. *whine*

1. Full Name: allison euphemia smith
2. Nick Names: allie,al,als,smech(ola,ofagus)
3. Birthday: june 19
4. Where were you born: toronto
5. How old are you: 15...16 soon enough
6. Sign: gemini aka we are elitist (hah. i can just keep all of jess' answers)
7. Hair Color: seafoam green
8. Eye Color: blue
9. How tall are you: 5'2
10. What shoe size do you wear: 6-7
11. Are you righty or lefty: right
14. How many siblings do you have: 1 brother
15. How old are they and what are their names: 19-Carson
16. What are the last 4 digits of your phone number(including cell phones): 0801,0007
17. Do you crack any body parts: no.
18. Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend: yes. <3
19. Do you like anyone: yes.major crush
If so who: .little boy.

......Have You Ever...

20. Got in a fight: physical ? no
21. Liked a teacher: as in crush? dude? (rethinks all teachers) dude! thats.. just..hairy
22. Commited a crime: many. grand theft auto has to be my favourite
23. Ever ate a tub of ice cream by yourself: ha yes.but it was a wuss tub like Ben and Jerry's
24. Laughed so hard you peed your pants: I always pee my pants... so yes
25. Ran into a glass door: yup.thats pretty standard blonde stuff
26. Kicked the wall so hard you broke every toe on that foot: never
27. Punched a wall and put a hole in it: ya
28. Gone skinny dipping: yes
29. Ate dirt: n/a
30. Been in love: aah
31. Been hit by a car: nope
32. Asked someone out: no....ha.
33. Ran into a parked car: ha yes
34. Been in a car accident: nope
35. Jumped off a roof: yes

.....Favorites...

36. Food: ah.anything.without dairy and most meat and caffiene
37. Car: ah jonas..
38. Candy: sour gummi's.
39. Drink: iced tea/lemonade (whoa jess is my complete double)
40. Slurpee Flavor: aww. orane pop and coke
41. Chip: mmm sour cream and bacon!
42. Store: value village/black market/
43: Shoe Brand: birks and etnies. mmm my etnies
44: Resturaunt: pickel barrel.
45: Sport: snowboarding ..ah blue mountain..fun times
46: Thing to do: sex.smoke my nicotine,run rampant like sars
47. Number: 5
48. Alcoholic Drink: beer.
49. Animal: monkeys! and leemurs
50. Holiday: halloween
51. Day: saturday
52. Month: june and august
53. Quote: still humping the american dream
54. Band: meh.
55. Song: poo
56. Scent: hawian ginger, laundry on boys,mirsky
57. Book: fear and loathing in las vegas
58. Magazine: meh
60. Radio Station: q 107. classic rock.
61. Vacation Place: ireland,new york,california,cuba!,
62. Movie: fear&loathing in las vegas,igby goes down,out cold,almost famous.. etc
63. Place to be kissed: cheek

.....Friends...

64. Best friend: julia lane.
65. Longest friend: laura
66. Funniest friend: lots
67. Smartest friend: whoa. tristan. he knows things!
68. Dumbest friend: eric. (agreed).
69. Athleticest friend: yes,julia riley and rugby running what?
70. Loudest friend: julia squared and probably... peej
71. Shyest friend: uh, laura or me.
72. Who do you go to for advice: jess,lauri,alex,lara,tyler and any other random smoker
73. Tallest Friend: eric, or drew whoa
74. Shortest Friend: i'm pretty short. but rachael is shorter than me so ha!

......Ladies Fill Out About Guys, Guys Fill Out About Yourselves...

75. Boxers or Briefs: boxers mmm.but i like 'em neecked!
76. Tall or Short: taller than me.
77. Long Hair or Short:.both looks good. mmm dreads but GOOD dreads
78. Dark or Light Eyes: what?
79. Six Pak or Muscular Arms: ew.six pack
80. Body or Personality: personality.
81. Ear pierced or not: whatever they want
82. Sportsy or Outdorsy: outdoorsy
83. Bad boy or Good Guy: ha.. oh good boys.. how i'll never find you..
84. Light Hair/Dark Hair: what>
85. Hat/No Hat: a little bit of both worlds
86. Tan or no Tan: guys that go tanning are creepy(agreed) but darker boys are fun

......Guys Fill Out About Ladies, Ladies Fill Out For Yourselves...

87. Looks or personality: what?
88. Good Girl/Bad Girl: uh, ah? credit at risk=baad
89. Hair Up or Down: bah
90. Grungy or Classy: grunge. sweet god . mmm no showering.
91. Chicken or Not Afraid: um?
92. Likes kids: are they fat?
93. Tan or Pale: irish,pale as anything
94. Piercings or None: ears and a healed nipple

.....Either Or...

95. Coke or Pepsi: neither. gross
96: McDonalds or Wendys: wendys
97. Cats or Dogs: cats
98: Coffee or Tea: tea
99. Sour or Sweet: sweet
100. Choc. milk or Hot Choc.: both can die
101. Vanilla or Choc.: choc.
102. Cake or Cookies: cake
103. Ice Hockey or Roller Hockey: _________________________
104. Day or Night: day/night. evening?
105. Lights on or Off: off
106. Ocean or Pool: ocean
107. Summer or Spring: summer
108. Winter or Fall: fall
109. Hug or Kiss: anything. from him.
110. Black or White: black

......In the Future...

111. Who is going to be by Your Side: dont know.
112. Where are you going to Live: ireland
113. How Many kids do you want: adopt. 1 or 2
114. Girl's Name(s): Oona
115: Boy's Name(s): Caleb
116. College you want to attend: fanshawe.. if any
117. What is your career going to be: lets go for bohemian actress turned stripper? anyone anyone?
118. Whats your Wife/Husband going to Look like: hott(with 2 t's)

......Random Questions...

119. What color pants are you wearing right now:blue?
120. What song are you listening to right now: san dimas-ataris
121. What was the last thing you ate: oreos
122. If you were a crayon, what color would you be: meh
123. Where do you plan to go on your honeymoon: *shrug*
124. Last person you talked to on the phone: um.my brother's girlfriend
125. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex: hair
126. Do you like the person that sent you this: stolen from jess//i <3 jess
127. How are you today: bad day eariler. tired now
128. How do you eat an oreo: as fast as i can
129. What makes you happy: friends,boy,decent music,good movies,cigarettes with friends
130. What's the next cd you're going to get: no clue.
131. Do you like to dance: spontaneously yes
132. What's the stupidest thing you have ever done: ah! too many. walked into the boys bathroom. and then proceeded to yell "you didnt wash your hands"
133. Do you like cock? pff. of course
134. Dress, skirt, or shorts: skirts. shorts are the devil. i never really wear dresses
135. Believe in love at first sight: yes. <3 boy
136. Do you want your friends to write back: eh.
137. Who is least likely to respond: respond? as in comment. everyone
138. Who is most likely to respond: jess. shes the only one who reads my journal
139. Who's your super hero: um? herrwoo.
140. Who do you want to write back the most: blargh
141. E~mail: birksandtshirts@hotmail.com
142. Screen Name: who?ah
143. What Does Your Screen Name stand For: dont understand
144. Who was the last person you recieved email from besides this one: um my mom
145. Time you wake up on School Days: a good 7:15-7:30
ime you wake up on Weekends: anytime between 9-2
147. Time you go to bed on School Nights: when i get tired
148.Time you go to bed on Weekend nights: bah late. 3?
149:If you could rename yourself what would your name be: um i'll work on that
150:Define Love: <3 mirsk? i just love.

What would be a good name for me. If I could have any other name in the world. I want to know. What suits me. Just leave me a name that suits me. ..please.

thispenjustcantwritelonlienessnomore

Thu, 24 Apr 2003 01:41:03 GMT

And In The Event Of My Death. No One Is To Blame.

death? just kidding. although I know of 3 people who would love to see my corpse dragged through the cities I never got to visit.

Ataris,Julianna Theory,Further Seems Forever ticket = $17.50
Drug purchases(this is a joke) = $60
Tattoo = at least $50

not having Sammy in carpool tomorrow morning.... priceless

and so, i leave.finally with happier thoughts to sleep with. but no one to wake up to yet. when I have my way. i'll see him when I wake up. And he'll be the last thing I see before I shut my eyes. but right now. it's just his smell thats always on his pillow on his side of my bed, his sweatshirt that sleeps next to me when he's not there and his picture that line my headboard.... obsessed? maybe. Just for once. Happy and In Love. ♥

THIS WOULD BE THE OLD ME
really wanna call you, but I know that it's not right.
I probably shouldn't tell you but I dreamed of you last night.
I guess I'm not prepared to say...
Goodbye, so long, farewell, I won't be seeing you again
Until next time that he goes away.

You told me that you loved me, I started tearing down those walls.
I really started to trust you but you set me up to take the fall.
I guess I'm not prepared to say...
Goodbye, so long, farewell, I won't be seeing you again
Until next time that he goes away.

I guess that I'm wrong for falling in love,
But you're still the one that I'm dreaming of.
I guess that it's you I want to hold onto,
But you're holding onto someone else.//

THIS WOULD BE THE *NEW* ME
stars are out tonight
and you're the brightest one shining in my sky.
it's like every wish I ever made came true.
the day I woke up lying next to you.

will you be my best friend
if I offer you my heart?
'cause it's already yours.
we could hang out every night
and watch the sun go down.
as long as we could watch it rise again.

gave me a valentine.
it's these little things that stand the test of time.
I've saved the tickets from the shows that we've been to.
and a thousand other memories of you.

gave you this i.o.u. today.
it said good for one galaxy.
once I build my rocket to the stars.
we'll fly away just you and me